Mom's Worst Nightmare

Okay maybe for some this isn't the absolute worst scenario but for me it's high up there! Wait for it... Trying on a Bikini! Let alone actually walking out with a purchase! My husband and I decided to walk the mall this past weekend and I saw Victoria Secret was having a sale on the swimsuits. I wasn't even going to bother to look, even-though they looked so cute! But next store to Victoria Secret was Game Stop, which Blake had to go in, and there was no way I was going in there with our daughter, who seriously wants to grab everything in that small store. It seriously gives me anxiety. So in to VS I went... All these tiny girls going nuts over the Bikinis, just made me feel even worse about myself. As I was glancing at this one cheetah print bikini, one of the sales girl came over and saw the disappointed look on my face.

"First time looking at swimsuits after a baby?" Was it seriously that OBVIOUS? When I looked at her you could tell she had a "mom" body herself. I told her about our Vegas trip coming up in May and how much I have been trying to work out. Yet, I still do NOT have the confidence to even try one on. She continued to ask me what my fears were on certain parts of my body. I seriously pointed to almost everywhere! With a quick chuckle, she went to town pulling all sorts of tops and bottoms. Lady did you not hear me? Unless you have a full on head to toe cover up swimsuit, I ain't getting in it. I called Blake to get Olivia so I can try on these "bikinis" and next thing I knew, I was standing in front of those changing room mirror thinking you can do this.

I tried on the one bottoms, with the cheetah print, that originally caught my eye. They are high wasted (which I have never tried before), instead of the low rise style. It has open sides with a bunch of ties. I thought for sure all of my love handle would seep through the cracks. But NO! It looked amazing and even made me look skinnier! Is this a trick? Maybe the mirror tricks your eye into thinking something else. I would be lying if I said I didn't get tears in my eyes. I tried on a couple black top pieces and finally found one that hid, what I like to call second boob. You know the part in between the armpit and breast? The almost impossible spot to slim down. Anyways, it hides that and... Ladies, it has a push up in it! Not the ones teens like to wear to over compensate but a NORMAL push up! The ladies have never looked better!

Long story short I ended up purchasing my first swimsuit in almost 3 years! And I felt great in it! I may need a little tan before I flaunt this look because I don't remember the last time my stomach saw sunlight.I want you to encourage yourself and go to a place like VS that measure you and find a swimsuit that actually works for you! Everyone doesn't have the same body no matter how big or small you are. That's something I am learning and figuring out. What fits me for this new body of mine. Some may say I'm not fat but for me, going from a size 2/4 to a 6/8 is a big deal for me. Even with no ounce of fat, my hips will always be wide now. My mom likes to tell me "you mean you have a woman's body now?!" She is right though. I'm not a teenager anymore and I need to except that.

Two Months Down; Keep Going

I don't know what was up with this month but so much has happened!It's like one thing after another. I went to go visit my sister in the first time in 5 months! It was an awesome trip but OMG, I seriously gained all of that hard work back. We ate beyond unhealthy and the portions were out of control! It's fine though since it is a rare occasion. You should treat yourself here and there. When I got back home our dog's breath smelt so bad! I could have sworn he had something rotting in there. Well.. He did! His teeth. The vet had to put him under for a cleaning and had to extract 4 of his back molars. Seriously poor guy! He isn't even 7 years old yet and already dealing with some health issues. Hopefully now he will start acting like his age again.

Love and miss you beyond words Sis!

Fast forward another week and my husband's (Blake) car decided it wanted to not work anymore. I couldn't exactly blame the car. It is a 2002 Acura RSX with almost 200k miles on it. It was a great little car but it doesn't fit our family any more and the cost to repair it would be more than what it was worth. We started shopping for cars and found an amazing deal for a 2015 Subaru WRX. This car is my husband's dream car and who would have thought we are able to afford it now? So weird to walk into a dealership and say "I want that one!" It's been a couple weeks now and that smile from Blake's face when he see's "his" car is priceless. 

Love that smile!

So after the typical everyday stress of life and overcoming the flu, that everyone caught in our home. Things have just gotten in the way of my fitness progress. I've been trying to keep up with my Stroller Strides group as much as possible and exercising on my own time, but I'm going to be honest. My diet could improve and well... The fitness part needs a little talking to. Luckily I have friends in the Stroller Strides group that will text me and get my butt to class but it's hard. Being a mom, doing every day errands (groceries etc.), play-dates, keeping the house together, and more.. Fitness is so hard to keep up! I did, however, loose another 3lbs! Wow so much... Can't you hear the sarcasm leaving my mouth? I should have better results but you get what you work for. And this month wasn't very great. 

Starting to somewhat see some definition and toning in my stomach!

Both my stroller and jogger decided to break on me this past week, which led to a purchase of a City Select Jogger. I'm extremely excited! It makes jogging with her easier. I only have 9 more weeks before I get myself in a bikini and I'm not sure if I can do it. I can't give up now! I just can't! I have so much to prove to myself. Even eating a little bit healthier has made my skin look better and I already feel ten times better. More energy to keep up with the little one! Don't all of us moms need more energy? I know I do!